WHAT'S MY LINE?
A month of training has passed in SISPEC. I am very unsure if i can ever pass my course. For starters, my SOC performences is getting poorer by the day. From failing by a minute, to failing the many minutes, this is then followed by failling the swing trainner, followed by low rope. Finally, during the last SOC training of the week, i can't even climb the low wall. The supervising sergaent yelled at me to run and jump at the wall. I did and crashed to the wall.
It is wrong to say SISPEC is all physical and OCS is all mental. i still carry thick piles of lecture notes around, i still sat in classrooms, i still sat in lecture rooms, i still sat in computer labs, i still sat for theroy and practical test, and i still get caught sleeping in class.
Comes the poly days that i longed for, without the civilian clothes. And the fact that this is now an all boys school and we all wear green.
Friday the 13th is still prevalent in camps. On that day i seen one guy sprained his ankle during the day's SOC run, the fate of the failures of a therory test was spelt out. As for me, i dropped my rifle down the flight of stairs. there was three super loud thuds, followed by a ultra loud clang as the rifle smashed to the railings to the stairs, and a final thud as the rifle landed flat on the ground. This little incident caught the attention of the entire company and a nearby sergeant.
Luckily my balls was still intact and certified fit to particapate in the SOC that was to happen in the matters of seconds.
Through out my stay in SISPEC, my bed time is spent reflecting on myself. Like how i took everything for granted and remained carefree, like how engineering is not meant totally for me. If is not for my friends, i swear i'll never pass my course, especially at maths, eletronics, product designing, and C programming. Currently in my thoughts is what i'll do after army.
Well, i'll sort them out soon. Until then, i'll still be going through misadventures of all kinds. Up coming next week is a whole series of navagation stuffs.
hold me now at 9:50 PM